1. Victoria
    May 15, 2016 @ 3:00 PM

    I can sooooooooooo relate to your story rendering. I too, can recount time and again when God has provided for me right at the point of my need. Still, when each new need arises, the question always haunts my mind: Does He expect me to handle this on my own this time?

    I mean…how many miraculous deliverances can I expect from Him before He puts the onus back on me? After all, the pending circumstance is most probably due to my own fault. If I had done (this or that) or had NOT done (this or that) I might not have been in this situation. Can I really expect Him to keep bailing me out every time I turn around?

    In those times, I fight hard to stay out of the pit of depression, but more often than not I go there, anyway. Gratefully, to this day, my depression ends at the point where His miracle occurs. Now, if I could just learn to respond to life’s trials with faith and anticipation…


    • avincent
      May 15, 2016 @ 11:22 PM

      In my darkest times He moved so quietly that I didn’t even realize it until I was finally out of the storm. My depression was so severe that, even though I read my bible and journaled almost every day, I still felt alone. Looking back though I realize that He DID meet with me each of those days and THAT alone is why I survived it. I didn’t realize it was HIM that gave me the strength to go one more day. Actually I didn’t really realize it until just now!

      THANK YOU GOD for the life You restored to me. The sunshine and the rain. The joy AND the pain. You held me tightly in Your loving arms even when I couldn’t see past the dark night of my pain. You brought the sun again. Not right away, because I was afraid of it shining on my raw places. But bit by bit You allowed the light in until I was finally flooded with it and could move out into the places You prepared for me.


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